I'm FAT

My scale has been neglected and forgotten for much too long. I've blamed kids, stress, our reno, my age, etc. I've used every I-can't-handle-it-right-now excuse in the book, and they are all legitimate excuses. really, honest, you hear me. I've also tried many low cal, easy to follow diet plans as it became more and more difficult to fit into my cloths; all I've succeeded in doing is making myself hungry and cranky. I do not want to HAVE to buy a new wardrobe, I know how unproportional I am and how hard fat cloths can be find. I sewed at least half of my wardrobe through college. UHG. I'm tired, my thighs chafe. I have back fat.

With this dawning awareness I'm going back to the begging. Eight years ago I lost a whack of weight, 30+ lbs. I did it progressively, fairly quickly, and without exercise for the first 25, and I kept it off for more than two years, right up until I got pregnant with my first, and when on a brownie binge. Why didn't I just do the same thing again. Two reasons. One it's any sort of Low Carb, controlled carb, high protein diet is not easy. Two I did, but I started where I left off. Thinking back I was eating the same way I was after I'd lost most of the weight, using more commercial stuff and less real food, cheating-just-a-little-bit, just enough to negate any weight loss I may have achieved. I also relied too much on exercise. Yes exercise is good for body reshaping, but in my case it is more than useless for weight loss. Exercise makes me hungry, and when I'm hungry I eat.

Monday I'm going on a diet, I'm going to change my eating habits the same way I did in St. T- and follow the original Carbohydrate Addicts Diet and once I'm past the worst of the sugar withdrawals I'll switch to Protein Power and see how things go from their. Wish me luck and see you on Monday.